Introductions

Hi. I'm harve. If you're here, you probably already knew that.

I'm @harveywithouty on Twitter (though I might end up changing the name so watch out), @harveposting on Instagram, and at some point I will have a Tumblr. I don't really care too much about having "a brand", so usernames will be inconsistent, but that might stop being the case someday.

I want to get kind of Real And True for a second and talk about why I actually went and made a blog and how it feels to have one, just to get into the groove of having it.

For a long time, I've wanted a place to dump stuff. Unfinished projects, little self-reflective essays, woes about life troubles and whatnot, but most of the internet is far too public a place for me to do that in a way that feels safe and suitably NOT personal. Plus, all the social media I use is, like, TOO social, if you get what I mean. A bunch of different LinkedIns.

I feel like I'm hiding bits of myself I'd get more enjoyment out of showing. Instagram I barely touch, other than to talk to friends, Twitter is a place of I Have To Be Funny Or I'll Die, and Tumblr seems too distracting. I figure this site is simple enough and quiet enough that I can do stuff here without making too many waves. Everyone I want to see this place will see it, y'know?

As a kid that grew up on the internet and swiftly and violently had that used against him for about five years, doing something like this does still kind of make me feel like I'm airing out all my bullshit for people to make fun of me. My whole childhood was online, and bullies -- which is what I know they are, now -- are always gonna be bullies. They make you insecure about normal shit. I know now too that, logically, the majority of people that'd genuinely use something like this against me have been removed from my life, but I can't help but worry about it anyway. I feel like I constantly have to present some Form Of Self or be doing Bits And Jokes, and I kind of want to get away from that here.

This isn't me saying this will be pure unfiltered harve -- we present false images of ourselves all the time just by virtue of being people on the internet, after all (which I touch on in some of the stuff I write, which may be published here one day) -- but it'll be a nice way for me to just kind of speak. I'm just gonna say things here for me, instead of for other people.

This place feels like a pretty good void to hoot and holler into; it's relatively simple to use and it feels fun to, like, have a website. It makes me think about scrolling through old blogs and reading creepy stories til my eyes went square.

Stick around, if you want. I'll be here either way. Same harve time, same harve channel.

Thanks for reading, friend. :]